The song "Found" was written from the heart and hits me every time I hear or perform it. The truth is, I was singing every night on stages all over the country ministering to others but inside I felt empty. I would often ask myself "How can you have such a beautiful wife, 3 awesome sons, be successful in your industry and still feel this alone and depressed?" My wife Lori has always supported me but I felt like I wasn't there emotionally to support her. I poured out every night but never filled back up. I was even too ashamed to tell my Pastors how empty and depressed I was feeling. I began to run to things that left me more empty than before. Food became an addiction and I gained over 100 lbs. I began to isolate myself more and more due to the fact that I was so embarrassed about the weight I had gained. I'm a public figure and that made it even more difficult. I felt like everyone was staring at me all the time. I'll never forget the day it changed. I felt like I was slowly losing everything, slowly killing myself. My middle son said daddy I miss you. The significant part about that statement is that he is with me almost everyday even on the road. He wasn't talking about missing me physically. As you can imagine I was overcome with emotion. I prayed for God to help me give my kids their daddy back and my wife her husband back. I'm still big but everyday I get a little smaller. I've changed my eating habits and have the full support of Seventh Day Slumber and my family. I realized the reason I was so empty is because "God has created us for Himself and our hearts will always be restless until they find their rest in Him". When you lose that closeness with God, nothing you have or accomplish will fulfill you. It's the Love, Grace, and Mercy of Jesus that has kept me all of these years. From delivering me from a $400 per day cocaine addiction to my present situation, He is FAITHFUL!